April Showers

What's that saying about April? April showers bring May flowers?


There is a slowness in this time just before taxes, and as such, my mind turned away from this in search of something to occupy it, to keep from worrying how long it would last...I'd prefer to write about happy, positive things.

I read a lot of Crowley and sex magic and I feel that it misses some element that I desire. It feels written by men, for men and though he praises Babalon, I can't help but think he wouldn't know the Goddess if she pinned him down and had her way with him!

I read about sacred intimacy and tantra and sex therapy and feel something missing too. I love the feminine, receptive quality and emphasis on the healing that can take place. They acknowledge that a genuine connection between two people is healing in itself.  There is also a serious sense to all this, and I miss a sense of playfulness and the power of taboo.

But truly, in my best sessions, these elements are barely in the background, if present at all. There is respect, a mutual trust, connection, playfulness, and the edge of doing potentially naughty things. It is doing one's will. And somehow, these delightful, tingling, naughty play times are healing--to myself and I hope also to those who see me. It's my desire to create an experience that is whatever they are seeking. It can be healing, wholesome, naughty, indulgent or something in between.

Unexpected Sabbatical

I'm sure my life isn't any more chaotic than the average person, but sometimes I wonder.  A couple of weeks ago, a few days down with the flu turned into an unexpected sabbatical from writing, working or doing anything productive. 

Well, I did do a lot of reading, personal journaling and self-exploration. From the outside, all this inside/mental work didn't look like much, but I am realizing now (after my birthday) that it was quite necessary.

I finished up Starhawk's Truth or Dare, skipping over several parts about community & group working simply because it didn't really apply to me right now.  It's one of those books I know I will read several times, it's practically a textbook.  I also got my hands on an astrology text, Planets in Transit, and have had a good time looking up my transits for the day, studying the interactions of the planets. 

My brain craves fiction now, and I've started Henry Miller's Under the Roofs of Paris. If you haven't read it, let me tell you, this is a bawdy book. I thought I had a dirty mind? No, but I'm looking forward to reading more fiction and studying the minds of dirty old men like Miller.

Perhaps...I hope, I pray, if I fill my mind with more stories, they will recombine in new ways and spill forth from head to hand to pen.  I do know I am in a better state of mind & being.

Return of the Special

Last night I was alternating between updating my ad, cooking, house-cleaning and reading and it occurred to me: I haven't gotten any serious queries since the end of the special.  I've grown too content in my book.

It was only three days, but I really enjoyed the burst of business. It was fun, unrushed and drummed up a lot of interest that I think ended too soon.  For the next 5 days, at least, I want to extend the special.

After all, the whole point of this adventure is to have fun and make money. If I'm not getting the calls, then I have the time to spare. And even when I am getting calls--I enjoy taking my time to see each person satisfied.

So I am bringing back the special!

She's My Cherry Pie

I can't help but get that cheesy Warrant song stuck in my head when I bring home fresh cherries.


It was one of those big full bags, bursting with firm fleshed cherries, vibrant red, a few dark, almost purple with ripeness. And such good prices!  Okay, they probably are not organic but who could turn down these juicy plump cherries?

Today seems to be fairly quiet, but hopefully the week will pick up.  In the meantime, I have to decide what I'll make with these cherries.  I already have some puff pastry and cherry pie is in my mind....but some chewy oatmeal bars would be healthier....