April Showers

What's that saying about April? April showers bring May flowers?


There is a slowness in this time just before taxes, and as such, my mind turned away from this in search of something to occupy it, to keep from worrying how long it would last...I'd prefer to write about happy, positive things.

I read a lot of Crowley and sex magic and I feel that it misses some element that I desire. It feels written by men, for men and though he praises Babalon, I can't help but think he wouldn't know the Goddess if she pinned him down and had her way with him!

I read about sacred intimacy and tantra and sex therapy and feel something missing too. I love the feminine, receptive quality and emphasis on the healing that can take place. They acknowledge that a genuine connection between two people is healing in itself.  There is also a serious sense to all this, and I miss a sense of playfulness and the power of taboo.

But truly, in my best sessions, these elements are barely in the background, if present at all. There is respect, a mutual trust, connection, playfulness, and the edge of doing potentially naughty things. It is doing one's will. And somehow, these delightful, tingling, naughty play times are healing--to myself and I hope also to those who see me. It's my desire to create an experience that is whatever they are seeking. It can be healing, wholesome, naughty, indulgent or something in between.

A Desire for Newness

It's funny, as I reach out to new experiences in sacred intimacy, in designing a new blog site and brainstorming a new business plan, I find a desire for newness: for a new name, new site, new ads & marketing. A new openness too--finding other communities besides RedBook.

I'm outgrowing this Electra Blue name--and after finding a spam mail sent through my e-mail, I am ready to ditch it in favor of a new address.

I don't know how much longer I will have this site, but you can be sure I will send links to the new blog when it begins to look presentable (Ugh, I know, I'm a perfectionist!)

Redbook hasn't been the best for business lately anyway. My service is taking on a greater depth that doesn't seem to be experienced much in RB.  I want to share in this sacred sexual healing modality, but I don't see a demand for in it RB.  Looking for greener pastures now...