I'm glad things have picked up towards the end of the month. When things are so slow at the start of the month, a slow sort of panic creeps into me that the calls won't come in time. I enjoy being a low volume, extended session kind of girl, but I want to attract more business turning the first half of the month too.
It seems like some guys might hold out until the end of the month either for budget reasons, or to see if we will lower our prices in the last minute attempt to pull in what's needed. That just seems like a shame, because I'm sure the extra stress makes session less enjoyable for her too.
I have a few ideas to regain balance, to manifest in June. An old friend is coming to visit me from NYC, haven't seen her in quite a while. She doesn't know what I do, but it will probably come up in conversation. I consider cover stories--I know I won't be able to tell everyone what I do--but for friends and lovers I prefer full honesty. How else can you really be friends, if they don't know the real you?
Again, it becomes a question of balance, showing enough, but not too much. Showing too much, or being revealed to the wrong people would be a threat to me. Oddly, this seems to be because society is threatened by me, by sex work in general. And I thought it was just because I'm liberal! A lot of things have been called a threat to society: women voting, homosexuality, Socrates, drugs, divorce...and yet here we are. And sex work goes back further than any of those. Sorry Socrates.
Maybe someday we will learn to stop struggling against our natures, and instead find balance within, to create balance without.
society is threatened by you, your a free thinker and free spirit and that scares the hell out of the powers to be. they think that by first controlling what you do and youractions then they can start to control what you think. as long as you know in your heart you are doing no harm that is all that matters. your giving what everyone needs and that is love. your one unique person. bob
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