A Change in Course

This time last Sunday, I was planing a week of hotel stays and networking with other providers, eager to do more, see more people. I had no idea that a simple phone call Monday morning would change all that.

Tuesday, I went on an interview and was given a job offer on the spot. More than that, I ended up training that day and asked to come back tomorrow. Not only is it in my area of expertise, but it's a significant pay raise from my previous straight job. 

It felt so odd, almost surreal, to suddenly have legal employment, that it took most of the week to sink in.

I know that I don't want to give this up entirely. I see this as an opportunity to re-make my image based on what I've learned, and allow myself to be more exclusive. Of course, my schedule will be much different now. I may create a new name, perhaps a new blog.  But never fear, I will keep updating, and post any new links as they are available.

High Rise, pt 2

"Maria..."

Richard, her boss. She was still a tumbled mess on the floor, gripping the glass. Before she could collect herself, he had let himself in, the door shutting causally behind him. His steel-grey hair matched his suit, shaking his head at this hot mess.

"You were doing it again." He grinned, his cock already growing.

"That is why you gave me the office, isn't it?" She sat down, shifting towards him, an after glow of pleasure still hanging over her, a cat-like smile on her face.

He locked the door, taking his time across the office, her office...but she was His. And it was his company, so...His office. It had started out as a game (the best and the worst of them always did!), but this one was different. She was smart, a wonderful asset to the company...and these games seems to inspire her best work. How could he not take that?

"You looked warmed up for me." A fist stuck in her hair, dragging her back up with a moan. She pressed herself against him, already undressing him. She wouldn't speak, only murmur against his skin, working her way up his chest and neck. He felt his belt whipped from his unzipped pants, the garment shoved down. The rest of their clothes were shed like a cocoon, freeing them from their mundane lives for a moment to fly.

His hands against her breast, he pressed her naked flesh against the glass once more. The glass felt cool against her mound, his fingers finding her wet snatch, eager. There was no time at all, he fit himself against her folds and pressed. Maria moaned delightfully, arching up against him while she looked out at the dizzying height. Her breath steamed up the glass. Soon, his hand was in her hair, holding her tight, working her hard and fast.

"I like my pussy all warmed up for me," he crooned darkly in her ear. He was close now, gripping her hips tight against him as he shoved her against the glass. They moaned together as he came, his cock pulsing hotly, her pussy gripping tight like a fist, milking him clean. Resting a moment against the glass, his breath joining hers to fog their favorite window.

Vacationing in the Mountains

Between all the traveling, re-meeting family I haven't met in ages, and dealing with the prerequisite drama, I hardly had time to go on the internet at all. For months, the internet has been my lifeblood and constant companion.  I had a new appreciation for it while I checked my email for the first time in this sleepy mountain town in new mexico.  I sipped coffee at one of the few cafes in the area that offered wi-fi there.

Riding by train is an adventure in itself. If you have the time to make it part of your trip, it's so much more relaxed than the bustle and restrained chaotic near-panic that is airport security. You end up meeting people along the way. I enjoyed creating variations on a story, while learning about other people. I saw a bear from the train. He had just come to a mountain-side watering hole, and was watching a small group of cows that had wandered far from the rest of their herd. I wonder if he dined on steak that eve....

I only have just begun to unwind out here, and actually feel like I'm on vacation. At the same time, I'm plotting my return to San Francisco and eager to meet with a few more wonderful men. I am reminded how much I love this city, how much I enjoy living my independent life just as I wish, largely without judgment. Funny, but the mask I wore at home felt so much more false than the mask I wear when entertaining. I am not sure when that happened, and would much rather embrace my brazen, sexy healer-whore self than live anything like the lives unfolding back home.

This trip has reminded me how much I love to travel. I hope to do it more often in the future. My show's premiere went quite successful, so I may have to opportunity to take it on the road. Until then, I will relax, and try not to get sunburned.

July Moving Quickly

4th of July holiday was relaxed enough. I feel like I celebrate my independence every date I'm on, so I didn't need to over do it then.  There was the obligatory barbeque, and much prop creation for the show.  Yes, "The Show" is coming up at the end of the month. Religion, Sex, Horror, a new fable for a new age. Friday, July 29th.  I would like to invite select clients I've seen before, but I am keeping wraps on the details for sake of discretion. If you are interested in hearing more details, please email me and I'll be happy to share.

I also had the chance to visit San Jose. It was last minute, a shame I wasn't able to advertise it more, but it was a great chance to work with a new doubles partner, Sophia Amelia,  and see some people who I wouldn't normally get to see. And it was so much warmer! It was luxurious to have it stay so warm at night, no fog, no layers.

I came back to the city and have been working on props and costuming this week. Several masks are now finished, costuming has been chosen, the majority of the props are done.  And yet, every time I finish a project, five more things seem to come up!

I am hoping to entertain some more wonderful gentlemen in the week to come. With working on props, comes extra pent-up energy and an urge to flee my apartment and let loose! If you pardon my neat but unmanicured nails, I'm sure there's a great many things we could do.

A not-so-secret love

There are days I am afraid to proclaim it, but not today.

It's not a fear of doing what I do, but the fear of being damned by society for enjoying it.  A fear of being thrust into a victim's role--because "it's not her fault, she must have been hurt by someone long ago to drive her to this."

I'm not damaged anymore than anyone else. I'm not desperate. I am just different and I love that.

And yes, I love whoring around.

I love dressing up and having an excuse to buy make-up I only wear three times a week. I love taking the extra step to look feminine. It is not so much a costume as a prism, displaying beautiful colors found within ordinary light. 

I love reading introductions people write, the coming to know a stranger. I have met people whose names fill in on a google search, and others whom I know nothing about except their most intimate turn-ons and fantasies.

I love being someone's indulgence, someone's small luxury. There are so many reasons why someone comes to see me, and I love finding that out.  I love the sated look on a person's face knowing *I* put it there.

I have found there is healing in sex, even the most animal, dirty, kinky or the unceremonial rushed coupling. I have ever been drawn to the sacred roots of this oldest profession, and I love the challenge of bringing back that sacred nature. To dare others to view it differently. I love uncovering that healing in the taboo.

I love when I can tell I am truly appreciated in my role. When any initial fear, doubt or even guilt is allowed to melt away. When pleasure is given, taken, exchanged and then allowed to rest. I love when men do not pity me, when they recognize my enjoyment. I love when there is no attempt to haggle the donation because they understand the value of the service offered.

I love discovering how someone touches, kisses, fucks. I love the newness of each first time, the rediscovery of the second time. I love creating new ideas and games to make each visit different and unique. I truly love trying new things, and trying new people.

And despite the fear I sometimes have, I love that I enjoy it all so much. I love loving it.

High Rise

She had a love of heights, and when her office was moved up to the 17th floor, Marie was delighted to see the large windows behind her desk. No, larger than windows, they were practically walls made of glass.  She enjoyed leaning her forehead against it, the vast space below. Cars and people reduced to bugs hurrying on the ground. Even the nearby buildings seemed dwarfed by this view. It was a thrill to lean against the glass so high, a thrill that ran down her spine to throb between her legs. Marie couldn't explain it, but it excited her to no end.

A quiet, hard worker, no one noticed Marie's lunch breaks taken in her office, or if she stayed late.  Her door closed, her back to the rest of the office, she would sit back, take in her high rise vantage point and squirm hotly.  Pantyhose pulled down and skirt hiked up, Marie watched the people far below. They couldn't see her spread her legs, fingers rolling against a swelling clit. She pretended they could--that a commuter would look up, that her self- pleasure was so powerful she would cause a traffic jam.

It was the idea of being seen, more than the reality, that made her so hot. Her pussy lips already moist, fingers sliding in to match the motion of her thumb. Two handed, she would play with herself. one hand rubbing inside that secret spot, making slick wet sounds as her other rubbed circles around her swollen button, pleasure and pressure building, causing her to gasp unexpectedly with the surge of warmth running through her.

More!  She had to get more!  In what was nearly a leap, she left her chair to lean against the window, hands still stuffed under her skirt.  Against the window, she pressed herself, bracing one leg up on a table for better access. That thrill of heights pushed her to the next level, fingers moving non-stop as she felt the heat build like an electric charge. She imagined all eyes on her, transfixed as she bucked urgently against the glass, wet digits sliding deeper. Her muscles tensing deliciously as the promise of release came closer, closer....clit throbbing then surging as the built-up charge released through her body, through ever cell as it rushed up her spine and spilled out through her lips in a cry of pleasure.

The force of her orgasm so great, Marie's knees went weak and she slid down the glass wall, a streak of wetness left behind as she relished in the glowing, tingling sensation slowly waning from her limbs.


That was when she heard the knock at her office door.....

Creating a Temple of Passion

This is really only the beginning.

I have been both eager and tentative about settling down any roots for this work. But now I have my hands on an opportunity to share a space and establish it's look and feel--a temple of passion.  Dedicated, not to any one God or Goddess in particular, but dedicated to the women who work in the space and the men who seek to release...their stress and worries, who I hope will find much satisfaction here.

I seek to be careful too, and I delayed any announcement at first. Who knows if everyone involved will really mix until you've tried it? And I feel a lot of potential in the space.

It may require a "temple raising" party......