Unexpected Sabbatical

I'm sure my life isn't any more chaotic than the average person, but sometimes I wonder.  A couple of weeks ago, a few days down with the flu turned into an unexpected sabbatical from writing, working or doing anything productive. 

Well, I did do a lot of reading, personal journaling and self-exploration. From the outside, all this inside/mental work didn't look like much, but I am realizing now (after my birthday) that it was quite necessary.

I finished up Starhawk's Truth or Dare, skipping over several parts about community & group working simply because it didn't really apply to me right now.  It's one of those books I know I will read several times, it's practically a textbook.  I also got my hands on an astrology text, Planets in Transit, and have had a good time looking up my transits for the day, studying the interactions of the planets. 

My brain craves fiction now, and I've started Henry Miller's Under the Roofs of Paris. If you haven't read it, let me tell you, this is a bawdy book. I thought I had a dirty mind? No, but I'm looking forward to reading more fiction and studying the minds of dirty old men like Miller.

Perhaps...I hope, I pray, if I fill my mind with more stories, they will recombine in new ways and spill forth from head to hand to pen.  I do know I am in a better state of mind & being.

Sacred Whore vs Sacred Intimate

I have been reading up on the subject lately.  I'm observing a tendency of political correctness, or perhaps just an emphasis on the healing, spiritual and academic side of it. In more "serious work" about the topic of sacred harlotry (aka-not my blog), they call it sacred intimacy, erotic shamanism (my favorite of the group), erotic bodywork...they skirt around that sex may go on and money is exchanged. The healing, the touch is the important part.

But there's something I relish in the term sacred whore! Precisely because our culture (and many people) would say those two things don't go together.  It's the reason why I prefer the term witch instead of pagan.  They embrace the bad girl and embrace the healing of shadow work.

From a legal viewpoint, also, I see why they choose these phrases. I see why they choose to bring light into a shadowy world.  I have always sought balance, and want to acknowledge the shadows while bringing in the light.

A New Year Comes Blazing Through

New Year Eve was spent with a green, muddy junk worked into my hair. No parties for me this year, just a private celebration with champagne. After six hours, I wash it out. The henna color takes two days to settle, so I lay low, reading and researching.

And since then, it's just been one thing after another. In a good way, but when I looked, I saw I haven't written in my blog in too many days. This girl needs a spanking for that, but then I *still* wouldn't be writing!

The blog and my experience with escorting has very nearly reached the one year mark and I'm diving in just as deep for my second year.  I want to take what I've witnessed and learned and build my business even better.  This means I simply must write more, even if just to jot down some interesting bit that happened during the week.  I've also considered adding a twitter account, but I don't know if that will help me keep the blog more or less active.

My birthday is on the 29th, and my goal is to make these improvements by then. I may put together a small birthday wishlist on Amazon, but I think I will keep it low key. This birthday will be about self-improvement.

There's more to write about, but you readers deserve more posts, really.  So, I'll keep writing, and post a little every other day (or there will be spankings!)